People tell me it gets better..I will never believe them, I wake up with pain and go to bed in tears. I act like im okay, but im not..I guess I dont tell the truth either, I tell them Im okay and push them away, but they know Im not.
I think about what if I jump, what if I hung, What if...I just want to stop hurting. anyone I do talk to, open up to...they dont hear me, they dont feel the pain.
Im just so tired, I feel like im getting sicker and sicker, my screams are become louder, but still no one can hear. I've lost everyone who was close. said I was to much of a downer..they all left when I needed them.
I HATE
People tell me it gets better..I will never believe them, I wake up with pain and go to bed in tears. I act like im okay, but im not..I guess I dont tell the truth either, I tell them Im okay and push them away, but they know Im not.
I think about what if I jump, what if I hung, What if...I just want to stop hurting. anyone I do talk to, open up to...they dont hear me, they dont feel the pain.
Im just so tired, I feel like im getting sicker and sicker, my screams are become louder, but still no one can hear. I've lost everyone who was close. said I was to much of a downer..they all left when I needed them.
I HATE
Kid:
I enter the classroom and look around
I sit at my desk and stare at the floor
Nobody here ever tries to talk to me
and I can't really talk to them
I usually wait for class to begin
But ten minutes can feel like an eternity
I wish I could pop in my earphones
But they cut them in half yesterday...
Sometimes I hear them talking about me
But the words are always the same
They say it so much that I start to believe;
That I'm really what they say I am
Ugly, fat, stupid, beast;
These are the lightest words that they use
I wonder why they have to do it to me
But I don't know what it's like to be normal
Lunchtime is usually not s
*gasp, shuffling noises* h-hello?
(Forget jade this is new oc! I can't create another account, it won't allow me , gah, so forget jade, jade got shot down by dracs, dead. Okay bye)